Welcome to my website, totalconsciousnesses.com
My name is Santiago Elisondo Jr. I am an introvert and an over thinker of nonsensical ideas and fictitious scenarios.
At present, my primary interests are focused within a handful of areas: meta-physics, applied basic math, education, exercise, stories and meaning and purpose of life.
Art and drawing use to be the biggest interests in my earlier life; but, after a while I grew apart from most creative works. On occasion, I do return to art and attempt a modest graphite drawing—it’s usually average at best.
After high school, I worked in a couple of jobs, dropped out of community college and eventually enlisted in the military: four years active duty followed by four years inactive reserve. Though I joined the military with the expectation of dedicating twenty years of service, I exited after my first contract ended. One contract was enough to open my eyes to my utter immaturity in life.
Instead, after four years of active duty service, I spent the next eight years in school. During this time, I worked as a part time math tutor and a teacher’s assistant.
Finishing university, I eventually moved on to teaching full time: one year of middle school and four years of high school. Later, I worked four years as a part time lecturer, (which would have been five or six, if not for the pandemic).
My original career goal was to be hired as a full time professor at a local community college. But, things changed.
At the beginning of 2020, my classes were canceled due to the corona virus. It left me with more time to contemplate my life and my career path. Midway through 2020, I had to admit that my interests and values were changing. It was a very odd experience. At the start of the year, I was normal and only had interests in math and in teaching math; but, as 2020 came to a close, I valued writing. And, more valuable than writing, I valued thinking about the things that gripped my attention.
To admit to myself that I highly valued writing was embarrassing at first. But, with my newly accepted awareness, I could no longer deny my attraction to pursue writing a book or two.
Oh, make no mistake, I am fully aware of my below average writing ability. Even so, I cherish what little writing skill I have. And, I am grateful for each book I have completed and independently published.
Though it would be ideal to make money with my writing, I am more concerned with finishing my writing projects and improving my quality of writing.
Time is not a guaranty in life; and no amount of money and prestige can ever purchase more time to complete a purpose or two in life. So, in October of 2020, I started thinking about putting my ideas to paper; and a year and a half later I independently published my first book on philosophy, within the area of meta-physics.
At my current path in life, after another novel or two, I will most likely return back to the real world and get a real job. Until then, I will continue to write as honest as I can. It turns out that I create meaning and purpose in my life with my honest writing.
For a long time, I believed that meaning and purpose were discovered in the outside world. But, I know now that I was wrong. A person does not find meaning and purpose in life; a person creates meaning and purpose with the free-will they choose to act upon in their personal life.
Based on my experience, everyone should write at least one book in their life time, with as much honesty as they can lift in the world.
Be aware, dear reader, that the mere practice of being honest with the written word, with our honest perspective of reality, is a great responsibility that strengthens and creates meaning and purpose in life. It will change you when you put your ideas to paper. For the better, I hope.
Why would it be any other way?
Total Consciousness 