Welcome to my website, totalconsciousnesses.com
My name is Santiago Elisondo Jr. I am an over thinker of ideas, fictitious scenarios and various types of reasoning. Basically, I am an expert daydreamer.
At present, my primary interests are focused within a handful of areas: meta-physics, applied basic math, education, exercise, stories and using writing to explore meaning and purpose of life.
Drawing use to be the biggest interest in my earlier life. But, after high school, I grew apart from most artistic works. On occasion, I do return to art and attempt a modest graphite or color pencil drawing—it’s usually average at best.
After high school, I worked in a couple of jobs, dropped out of community college and eventually enlisted in the military: four years active duty followed by four years inactive reserve. Though I joined the military with the expectation of dedicating twenty years of service, I exited after my first contract ended. One contract was enough to open my eyes to my utter immaturity in life.
Instead, after four years of active duty service, I spent the next eight years in school. During this time, I worked as a part time math tutor and a teacher’s assistant.
Finishing university, I eventually moved on to teaching full time: middle school and high school at first. Later, I worked as a part time lecturer, (which would have been five or six, if not for the pandemic).
My original career goal was to be hired as a full time professor at a local community college. But, things changed.
At the beginning of 2020, my classes were canceled due to the corona virus. It left me with too much time to contemplate my life and my career path. Midway through 2020, I had to admit that my interests and values were changing. It was a very odd experience. At the start of the year, I only had interests in math and in teaching math; but, as 2020 came to a close, I valued writing and the writing process more.
To admit to myself that I highly valued writing was embarrassing at first. But, with my newly accepted awareness, I could no longer deny my attraction to pursue writing a book or two.
Oh, make no mistake, I am fully aware of my average at best writing ability. Even so, I cherish what little writing skill I have. And, I am grateful for each book I have completed and independently published.
Though it would be ideal to make money with my writing, I am more concerned with finishing my writing projects and improving my quality of writing.
Time is not a guarantee in life. No amount of money and prestige can ever purchase more time to complete a purpose or two in life. So, in October of 2020, I started to seriously consider putting my ideas to paper. Believe me, I resisted. But in August of 2021, I began writing full time. The following year, I independently published my first book on philosophy, within the area of meta-physics.
At my current path in life, after I publish my third novel in late 2026, I will need to stop writing full time and return back to the real world and get a real job. Until then, I will continue to write as honest as I can. It turns out that I create meaning and purpose in my life with my honest writing.
For a long time, I believed that meaning and purpose were discovered in the outside world, separate from me. That was a mistake. I know now that I was very wrong. A person does not find meaning and purpose in life; a person creates meaning and purpose with the free-will they choose to act upon in their personal life.
Why would it be any other way?
Total Consciousness 